Good riddance to you, the reaper… Song 365

One more song to go! This year is almost over, and not a day too soon. Is it me, or has this year been longer than the last three or so? The reaper has certainly been making up for lost time. The hits keep coming and we know we’ll have to face it eventually. It’s draining to think about. Good riddance to the reaper, good riddance to 2016!

Song 365: “Reaper”

Time is fleeting and that clock never stops
Mind the meaning and know when to walk

Good riddance to you, the reaper
The world keeps spinning along

None of us are evergreen, but here none the less
All of us know what it means, we’re all in this mess

Good riddance to you, the reaper
The world keeps spinning along

We weather the storms we’ve been watching, we catch the drift
We wonder where the time went, while we sit in this rift

Good riddance to you, the reaper
The world keeps spinning along

There’s no time to waste
You can’t just run in place
You can’t outrun the reaper

You can’t outrun the reaper
You can’t outrun the reaper

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from December – 2016, track released December 30, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams
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Knocking on the door of fates not mine… Song 364

Two more songs to go! I counted up all the songs I’ve released in total and after this project is done, I’ll have released 794 songs. Just six away from an even 800… just 206 away from an even thousand… hmm.

Today’s song ended up coming together quickly from a very simple acoustic guitar part. As I was strumming, my brain started firing off ideas on the direction the song should go. I added some strings then drums and I had to add a piano. Oddly, there are no synths in this one. But I think it ended up pretty good, especially the jam part at the end.

Song 364: “Waiting, Chasing”

Waiting for the end to come
Chasing what I used to know is true

Waiting for the world to catch up
Chasing a world I cannot see, it’s me

Knocking on the door of fates not mine
Finding ways to pass the time I wasted

Waiting for my chance to shine
Chasing a choice to leave behind, in flames

Knocking down the door to find what’s mine
Tripping over my own mind, I waited

All those days, still I wait
All these days, spend wondering
Spent waiting

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from December – 2016, track released December 29, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

A cloud of doubt is always hanging around… Song 363

Clouds, then sun, then back to clouds. There’s always some cloud or another hanging around. Many times I have that hopeless feeling, like that sun will never shine again. Then, it feels like, maybe that sun wasn’t here to begin with. Maybe it’s always been clouds. Maybe that sunshine was only illusions. A trick. A trap. A kick in the teeth. Or, maybe tomorrow will be better…

Song 363: “I Must Be”

I never meant to make a mess of this
I never meant to waste all this time
When I think of what I meant to be
I must have been out of my mind

Always day by day
Out of prayers to say
A cloud of doubt is always hanging around

I always thought I wasn’t afraid
I always thought I had it made
When I stop and think, I fail
I must be out of my mind

Always day by day
Out of words to day
A cloud of fear is always hanging around

I never want to fall into fear
I never want to claw my heart out
When I wonder, I’ve got nothing
I must be out of my mind

Wind blows across my face
It feels like being erased
Forgotten memory

I must be out of my mind
I must be out of my mind
I must be out of my mind

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from December – 2016, track released December 28, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

No more tears, no more dying. Come home… Song 362

Another day, another death. 2016 has been a particularly brutal year for famous people dying. Princess Leia died today… it sort of hit me, unexpectedly. I’ve been a huge Star Wars fan ever since I watched the original movie, laying on my grandma’s basement floor at 5 years old. I feel like I’m getting so much older now. My childhood dies a little more with each day. I just want to feel innocent and wide-eyed again. Life goes on. People live, people die. The world spins round and round. Another trip around that glowing ball and we get by somehow.

Song 362: “Come Home”

No more tears, no more dying
Come home

No more fears, no more crying
Come home

It’s more than I can take every single day
Lord knows I’m trying not to break down

No more worries, no more wounds
Come home

It’s more that what I asked for, I give it back to you
Lord knows I’m trying to make my way home

Come home

It’s more than just a feeling, I can hardly breathe
Lord knows I’m trying to make my peace here

Come home

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from December – 2016, track released December 27, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

The words I suffer take everything I need… Song 361

Only five more songs to go to finish this project! Today’s song took me a little longer than usual to finish, but I really love how it turned out. There’s a synth part in it that I ran through guitar effects. It makes it sound really aggressive, but at the same time, ethereal. The melody to this song sounds somewhat familiar to me, but I can’t figure out what it’s reminding me of. It sounds like a psychedelic indie rock kind of song.

Song 361: “Not Beaten”

Sirens calling out to me
The words I suffer take everything I need

The gold I wished away while being fooled
Gave me nothing but time
To fade away

Those needles piercing memories
Bursting my balloons with a wound

The pain I tried to save hid inside me
Tried to trick me into feeling
Something I never had

I walk alone with the wind at my back
I walk alone with the wind at my back
Still not beaten

The pain I tried to save hid inside me
Tried to trick me into feeling
Something I never had

Still not beaten

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from December – 2016, track released December 26, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far… Song 360

The year is winding down. Only six days left. Only six songs to go!

This is a song about love. It’s not always going to be all roses, sometimes the thorns will get you. But a kiss for every thorn makes it all better. It’s important to know that. There is a great comfort in the knowledge that, no matter what, the love is there. Sometimes it’s the only thing that can get you through one more day. You have to stay close. You have to give and receive the love unconditionally. Even the most beautiful wild rose has some thorns. But, with enough love, you never have to worry.

Song 360: “Wild Roses”

You don’t have to wonder if I love you
You don’t have to wonder if I care

Wish on any star
No matter where you are
I’m still here for you

We will always know where the wild roses grow
A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far

You don’t have to worry, I’m right here
You don’t have to worry about my love

You will always know
No matter where you go
I’m always here

We will always know where the wild roses grow
A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far

Please don’t feel so far away
We have our love every day we breathe

You don’t have to worry
You don’t have to wonder

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from December – 2016, track released December 25, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

Madness or sadness, you can take your pick… Song 359

Oh the bliss of ignorance, the agony of knowing. Is one better than the other? Is the indecision it’s own special form of torture? Lawyers say, “Never ask a question you don’t already know the answer to.”… But if you can feel something wrong with you, is it better to know, or should you let it go? Maybe time heals all wounds. Maybe time is running out. Or maybe it’s all in my head and I just need to keep moving. Like a drowning shark. Teeth bared. Smelling the blood in the water. Or perhaps hiding from life is the answer to that question that nobody asked. Or it’ could be a tumor… it’s not a tumor. It’s not a tumor at all.

Song 359: “Let It Go Now”

Madness or sadness, you can take your pick
I’m so lost inside this, it really makes me sick

Do I wanna, do I wanna, do I wanna know
Do I wanna, do I wanna, or just let it go

This wound may be superficial
Or down deep in my bones
I guess it’s not official
I’m just sick of telephones

I feel it crawling in my brain every waking hour
I wish I was only insane, but I don’t have that power

Do I wanna, do I wanna, do I wanna know
Do I wanna, do I wanna, or just let it go

Do I want to know
Should I want to know
Let it go now, let it go now

Do I want to know
Should I want to know
Let it go now, let it go now

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from December – 2016, track released December 24, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams