No more tears, no more dying. Come home… Song 362

Another day, another death. 2016 has been a particularly brutal year for famous people dying. Princess Leia died today… it sort of hit me, unexpectedly. I’ve been a huge Star Wars fan ever since I watched the original movie, laying on my grandma’s basement floor at 5 years old. I feel like I’m getting so much older now. My childhood dies a little more with each day. I just want to feel innocent and wide-eyed again. Life goes on. People live, people die. The world spins round and round. Another trip around that glowing ball and we get by somehow.

Song 362: “Come Home”

No more tears, no more dying
Come home

No more fears, no more crying
Come home

It’s more than I can take every single day
Lord knows I’m trying not to break down

No more worries, no more wounds
Come home

It’s more that what I asked for, I give it back to you
Lord knows I’m trying to make my way home

Come home

It’s more than just a feeling, I can hardly breathe
Lord knows I’m trying to make my peace here

Come home

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 27, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

The words I suffer take everything I need… Song 361

Only five more songs to go to finish this project! Today’s song took me a little longer than usual to finish, but I really love how it turned out. There’s a synth part in it that I ran through guitar effects. It makes it sound really aggressive, but at the same time, ethereal. The melody to this song sounds somewhat familiar to me, but I can’t figure out what it’s reminding me of. It sounds like a psychedelic indie rock kind of song.

Song 361: “Not Beaten”

Sirens calling out to me
The words I suffer take everything I need

The gold I wished away while being fooled
Gave me nothing but time
To fade away

Those needles piercing memories
Bursting my balloons with a wound

The pain I tried to save hid inside me
Tried to trick me into feeling
Something I never had

I walk alone with the wind at my back
I walk alone with the wind at my back
Still not beaten

The pain I tried to save hid inside me
Tried to trick me into feeling
Something I never had

Still not beaten

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 26, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far… Song 360

The year is winding down. Only six days left. Only six songs to go!

This is a song about love. It’s not always going to be all roses, sometimes the thorns will get you. But a kiss for every thorn makes it all better. It’s important to know that. There is a great comfort in the knowledge that, no matter what, the love is there. Sometimes it’s the only thing that can get you through one more day. You have to stay close. You have to give and receive the love unconditionally. Even the most beautiful wild rose has some thorns. But, with enough love, you never have to worry.

Song 360: “Wild Roses”

You don’t have to wonder if I love you
You don’t have to wonder if I care

Wish on any star
No matter where you are
I’m still here for you

We will always know where the wild roses grow
A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far

You don’t have to worry, I’m right here
You don’t have to worry about my love

You will always know
No matter where you go
I’m always here

We will always know where the wild roses grow
A kiss for every thorn has got us through so far

Please don’t feel so far away
We have our love every day we breathe

You don’t have to worry
You don’t have to wonder

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 25, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

Madness or sadness, you can take your pick… Song 359

Oh the bliss of ignorance, the agony of knowing. Is one better than the other? Is the indecision it’s own special form of torture? Lawyers say, “Never ask a question you don’t already know the answer to.”… But if you can feel something wrong with you, is it better to know, or should you let it go? Maybe time heals all wounds. Maybe time is running out. Or maybe it’s all in my head and I just need to keep moving. Like a drowning shark. Teeth bared. Smelling the blood in the water. Or perhaps hiding from life is the answer to that question that nobody asked. Or it’ could be a tumor… it’s not a tumor. It’s not a tumor at all.

Song 359: “Let It Go Now”

Madness or sadness, you can take your pick
I’m so lost inside this, it really makes me sick

Do I wanna, do I wanna, do I wanna know
Do I wanna, do I wanna, or just let it go

This wound may be superficial
Or down deep in my bones
I guess it’s not official
I’m just sick of telephones

I feel it crawling in my brain every waking hour
I wish I was only insane, but I don’t have that power

Do I wanna, do I wanna, do I wanna know
Do I wanna, do I wanna, or just let it go

Do I want to know
Should I want to know
Let it go now, let it go now

Do I want to know
Should I want to know
Let it go now, let it go now

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 24, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

I’ve emptied out my mind, a few too many times… Song 358

Everyone need a day off sometimes. So, I recorded this song Wednesday along with the song I released then. I’m gonna take the day off from recording today. What will I do with all this relaxing free time on my hands!?!?? Clean. Happy Friday!

Song 358: “Day Off”

I’ve learned a trick or two
To make up the difference
I’ve emptied out my pockets
To show my love to you

I may not have the time
To sit and wonder why
All the pieces fit when I’m with you

We can take the day off
And watch the world spin round
I know I’ve got a funny way of showing you
I love you, but I do

I’ve fought a war or two
To punch that ticket
I’ve emptied out my mind
A few too many times

But all that goes away
When I see your face
Smiling back at me

We can take the day off
And watch the world spin round
I know I’ve got a funny way of showing you
I love you, but I do

I got a good idea about an hour ago
I want to tell you but I gotta know
Do you love me too

We can take the day off
And watch the world spin round
I know I’ve got a funny way of showing you
I love you, but I do

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 23, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

Hold on tight to the moment… Song 357

Moments disappear without a trace, like magic. Where do those memories go if no one remembers them? Like a tree in the forest? Hold on tight, because this moment will never be here again. Maybe that’s a good thing, maybe it’s regrettable. Neither time nor the tides ever stop. We sometimes get washed away in the waves.

Song 357: “Like Magic”

Worlds spinning out like waves
Crashing into sadness
I feel the tides go in and out
Like Magic

Hold together in the moment
Hold your feet to the fire

Questions answered slowly
Like stars never seen
I feel the pull of your gravity
Like Magic

Hold on tight to the moment
Don’t dismiss the tragedy

Wounds upon wounds
Scars upon scars
Nothing ever changes
Like magic, like magic

Hold on tight to the moment
Like magic, like magic

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 22, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams

I feel warm next to you… Song 356

Well, winter has officially begun. Today is the winter solstice, the shortest day of the year. On the bright side, the days will get longer from now on and (hopefully) get warmer. The sun will come back, if we let it. I was unusually under the weather the last two days, so I didn’t write a blog post for my previous two songs. I also didn’t feel up to singing or playing guitar, so those songs are instrumentals. I feel much better today though, so I went all out. Lots of nice overtones in this song. I really like how it turned out. Almost soft psychedelic and spacy, but still romantic and accessible. I like when it all works out nicely.

Song 356: “Next To You”

Winter is here, but we don’t have to be cold here inside
That wind may be blowing and the sun is hiding on this long night
But I’m warm here with you

The sun will come back if we let it
And I’ll never let you go if you let me
Stay warm here with you

The snow keeps falling, but we don’t have to go out in the cold
Wrapped up in my arms, stay here forever with me
An you’ll be safe next to me

The sun will come back if we let it
And I’ll never let you go if you let me
Stay warm here with you

The sun will come back if we let it
And I’ll never let you go if you let me
Stay warm here with you

I feel warm next to you
I feel warm next to you

credits

from December – 2016, track released December 21, 2016
Written, recorded and performed by Matthew Sams